Willpower

I MADE myself go to the gym this morning. And of course I loved it. I don't know why I can't seem to remember how much I love being at the gym and working out. For some reason, whenever I think about going to the gym I just become super lazy and unmotivated. There is always some excuse why I can't go. Today it was the weather. "well, it's going to start snowing and the roads may be icy and yadda yadda." Fuck that. I went to the gym at 12:30 am and then I went to the grocery store afterwards. Yeah, when I left the grocery store at 2:15 am, it was snowing. But the roads were fine. And I live really close to both places. So SCREW my stupid excuses.

I have had this conversation/argument with myself about a billion times. I just need to be more disciplined.

I finally started on the Boteh scarf. I bought some yarn at the end of summer and just never got around to it. (I think the idea of baby projects distracted me.) Turns out, the original yarn I bought for this project is lame. It's kinda dark with hints of different color throughout. Seems like an awesome idea, but when put into action it just looks like a matte black yarn unless it's under super bright light. Poo. So I'm trying it with some silver Glitterspun yarn I bought for no reason. Not sure this one will work either, because so far it doesn't seem to be "drapey" enough to hang right. And the yarn is a touch itchy as well. I'm going to keep going for a bit, just to see what I think. If it doesn't work, I know exactly the yarn I want to use. I've been eyeing some super cute yarn at VY& T, but wasn't sure what I wanted it for so I didn't buy it. It's soft with touches of sparkle in it. I think it would be perfect for this scarf. Even if this silver yarn works out, I'll most likely make another one in that yarn anyways. Just what I need, right? A reason to buy more yarn. :)